In my Mind

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Happy you know what friends (MONDAY AGAIN), I know it’s been a while since I posted and its all due to personal reasons. I am angry, deflated, bewildered. Uninspired to say the least. I know life has it’s good moments and it’s bad, but you are never prepared for those bad moments no matter how hard you try.

I know on things can always be worse, that there are people out there who have it far worse, but I can’t help how I feel or why I feel what I do. My dad had a cancerous tumor removed in December. Went through months of radiation and physical therapy, felt like we were in the clear. He gets MRI’s completed every three months. There are spots on his liver and lungs. I am struggling in my faith and questioning why is this happening again? I believe in trusting in God that he will take care, he always takes care. So why does this have to happen?

My dad is at the hospital as we speak, waiting to conduct his second liver biopsy. I know this is all personal and unrelated to my blog in anyway, but as I have said before…this space has become my personal diary, life journey with you all. If my words and thoughts can help someone then my heart happy.

We may not understand why certain things happen, or why things are they way they end up, but we have to believe there is meaning to everything and that hardships and agony lead to clarification and better days. Don’t lose sight of the big picture, live one day at a time.

If you are reading this, I love you. Thank you for tolerating my rant and whines. Have a wonderful afternoon.

xoxo,

marcy b

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8 comments

  1. You can never makes sense of such circumstances. There are no answers. You just harness your strength and put one foot in front of the other. I’ve been in this battle to support family through cancer more times than I care to count.

    Sending positive thoughts & energy your way
    -Dasha

    1. Thanks so much girl, you made me smile. It’s certainly easier said than done! Thanks again! xoxo

  2. Hope the best for you and your family.

    1. Thank you!!

  3. I am so sorry to hear about your father and hope that he is well. Just remember that there’s no rainbow without a storm so I am sure that the storm will leave soon and u will have way brighter days 🙂 stay strong girl!

    1. Thank you so much! 🙂

  4. gatorglamgirl · · Reply

    I’m so sorry to hear this! I completely understand what you’re going through because I went through it with my stepmom. We’d be told that things were great…she’d go back in for a PET scan and BAM…more spots. Sending you lots of love and prayers!! If you need to talk, I’m always here!

    1. Thank you so much! It’s very frustrating to take one step forward and two steps back, its truly an emotional roller coaster. I hope your stepmom is well now! xo

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