The Little Things.

Hello guys, I’m hoping you had a marvelous long weekend. I know I sure did. I ate WAY too much, found some great things shopping on Black Friday, and spent lots of time with family and friends. I am feeling rather rejuvenated and just in time for our very anticipated trip to Disney World.

On a more somber note, I don’t know if you have noticed or not, but I haven’t been posting much on the blog, or instagram for that matter. I contemplated a long time internally about whether or, not I was going to let you in on what my heart is so heavy and my mind is so full of. After talking to one of my best friends, she encouraged me to do this so I am. Like I mentioned before, this blog is a creative outlet for me, a way to help and inspire others, but most times this is really like a very public diary.

Something about putting words to paper, or should I say post, really helps the heart. For the last week and a half, I have been silently holding my breath. You see, my dad has been struggling with knee pain and after further testing, it is clear that he has a massive knee/bone tumor that the doctors are most certain is cancer. They just don’t know what kind yet. So, as my family and I try our best to just keep living day to day, its the only thing anyone can think about. I know fear of the unknown is the greatest fear there is so until we know what we are fighting against, we can’t feel that optimistic even though we really want to.

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The only reason I am sharing these personal details is to hopefully be a reminder to always tell the ones you love that you love them. Always live each day like your last. Never take anyone, or anything for granted. I know I being totally cliche…Always do what makes you happy. Never do something because you feel obligated to. Always appreciate the little things in life and be thankful for all you have. Never stop dreaming, hoping, working, or trying. Never lose hope, or faith.

My dad is the rock of our family, the person we all turn to in times of trouble. The mere idea of anything jeopardizing that is absolutely our worst nightmare. It’s been extremely hard to have faith and trust that this is in God’s hands because its human nature to feel helpless, discouraged, and alone. I have also been feeling so superficial in even writing this blog. How can I get dressed up and take photos and smile while my dad’s future is in limbo? How can I tell you about what trends I love for winter, or what nail polish I am wearing?!

Life is so freaking hard, and scary, and things happen that we don’t understand and hurt us so much. But no matter what we have to keep going, keep hoping, keep praying. I know that no matter what things do happen for a reason and God has a plan for everyone. I hope that this post doesn’t offend you, if anything please know that you are never alone, and that you don’t have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. LET IT GO. That is most certainly what I am trying my best to do.

I didn’t write this for you to say, “OH IM SO SORRY”, or for attention. Don’t be sorry, its not your fault. This was just my rant for the day. I also didn’t write this for pity, so please don’t see this as attention starving, or to make my mom cry. So mom, stop crying. We will get through this crazy thing called life, we all will. My personal stories are personal, but I share them to hopefully bring inspiration to anyone who reads them.

If you are still reading this, then thank you. I love you for it.

until next time,

stay cute, stay sweet.

xoxo,

marcy b

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20 comments

  1. Life is very fragile. Life is very complicated. Life is very scary. But Life is beautiful. You speak, or type, true statements. This is why I decided to change my perceptive on life. This is why I decided to give people second chances. No matter the circumstances in life, always try to be as hopeful and optimistic as possible. I know you guys will be able to get through this. You all have a very strong family bond. Thank you for writing this. Sometimes we forget to tell those we care about how much we love and care about them because we get too busy in life.
    Ricky will be in my thoughts, for Ava and for you all. ❤

    Reeka

  2. Thanks for sharing what we are dealing with. I hope everyone who reads it realizes how quickly our life can change and never take anyone for granted. Cherish every moment spent with the people you love. I love you Marcy so much and of course I am crying while reading your blog but I know Dad will be ok. God is holding us in the palm of his hand!

  3. Life is complicated. Life is scary. Life can be difficult but Life is beautiful. You have wrote or typed some real truth here. I’m not really sure what was the turning point in my own life that made me completely see life differently, but I do. Marcy, you have a strong family bond and I know you guys will get through this. The best thing you all can do is be hopeful and optimistic. The greatest things that we have in this life is Family. So many things can be replaced, but never the ones we love.

    Ricky will be in my thoughts, for Ava and for all of you.

    Our past may not have been the best but I do know how short this life truly is. Ava has truly inspired me in a very unimaginable way. I love you guys.

    I’m here if you all need.

    Reeka

    1. I did not mean to double comment. It wasn’t working earlier and my comment wasn’t showing up. Sorry!!!

  4. Heidie Makes · · Reply

    Thanks for sharing this intimate topic with us, hope and wish that you will find the energy to turn better. It must be exhausting at the moment, one of my previous boyfriends that I dated had a mom that was going through this, but there is no way I can know how it feels. Lot’s of hugs & love! Stay positive! 🙂

    1. Thank you so much! xoxo

  5. I am praying that God will give you and your family the strength you need to overcome this obstacle.

    1. Thank you so much! I really appreciate it. 🙂

  6. Keep believing in God’s sovereignty. He is in control no matter what. Although we don’t get to see it yet, there is a reason for everything. You and your family will be in my prayers.
    Trust in Him when you feel like there is nothing you can do 🙂

    1. Thank you so much Shauna. 😀

  7. Thanks for being “our voice” Marcy and for saying what we feel and could not say….Beautiful words.

    1. Aw thank you so much Mawmaw, so sweet of you to say. 🙂 I am glad you like it. xoxo

  8. I hope that everything will turn out good for your dad and for your whole family. I am wishing you a lot of courage and love. You will all be in my prayers.
    Kisses from Paris!

    1. Why thank you so much, SO sweet. Words can’t express how much that means to me, thank you so much! xoxo

  9. Vicki Shelton · · Reply

    Never apologize for sharing your heart. Dennis and I are praying for Ricky and all of the family. Your dad has a special place in his uncle Dennis’ heart.

    1. Thank you so much Vicki, we have been truly overwhelmed by the outpour of support, prayers, and encouraging words from everyone. We feel so grateful and appreciate that so much. My dad has such a big heart and its wonderful to see his love reciprocated. xoxo

  10. That was very strong of you to share, I hope you are holding up ok!

    1. Thank you, very much!

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